Momancholy

It has been a bit quiet on the blog for the past few weeks, since Linnea left. I haven't done much else really than work, come home, eat dinner, see TV and sleep. Nathan and I are going away next week for a short trip, so making the most of getting some time in at the museum before then.

When I am here at home I walk around a little aimlessly, feeling sad for no particular reason, and keep thinking of old memories. It is quite weird here at home without Linnea. I keep waiting for her to come bouncing down the stairs in the evenings to make a cup of tea or some popcorn. It has been a big change for us both, to have our last child leave us. It was really very brutal and abrupt to just put on her on a plane, and say "See you at Christmas!". When you live this expat life, it's not like your kids can come home for a fika every now and then, for Sunday roast or to get their laundry done. It is very definite.

But, we actually talk more to her now than we have done all together I think the past two years. We text all the time and Zoom every day. She is doing ok with her Au Pair family, but of course it is not so easy to just go out and find friends, so she has been feeling a little bit lonely. It will take time, but we are sure she will find her feet properly soon. We will continue to be there for as long as she needs us (and beyond!), and hope that the momancholy feelings subside as well with time.